Road to recovery

Not being allowed back to work until Monday has become quite irritating. The things I do (or don't do) as I sit here all day...

I can respect the fact that I'm supposed to take this time to get better so I can return to work and stay at work. Yep - I get it. But come on...I'm bored. Here are my discoveries over the past few days:

1. Everyone I know is either engaged or married. Well, not everyone, but way more people than you would expect. I wouldn't say I'm jealous - it was my choice to have a few more adventures before embarking upon that "Happily ever after" adventure. It's just really interesting to see people who I ran around the sorority house with or who I went to grade school with - they are going to be husbands or wives....parents? Maybe I'm not as mature as I often feel, because there is no way I'm ready for that.

2. The Prospect of Living in the UK. Yes, I know I already am. But what about the future? Is this just a little blurb in my life, or is this something bigger than that? If it is something bigger, I have to make it feel a bit more like home. Sharing a house with six people - not so much like home. Walking everywhere - not at all like home. I have said that I want to stay another year here for the certification....so that means I have to make an effort to live. This isn't some study abroad experience where I look forward to going home. This is home.

2a. Learn to Driver. Getting a drivers permit answers a lot of questions. Makes you less temporary.

2b. Find an accommodation that I'd actually live in. Ideally, one other person. Kitchen, KITCHEN TABLE, living room, bedrooms, bathroom (with a shower/tub - but I'm not that picky). It's really not that complex. I had visitors yesterday - nowhere to take them! Come into my room and stand in the open space? There were people using the small breakfast room to watch tv.

3. I'm not fully discussing this one, but I can allude. I suppose it deals with the above points. I'm not sure what I want. And even if I was sure, how am I to know that it's right? I just don't know. Maybe I need to read The Secret again. And forget about timeframe.

It smells like bananas in my room -- I ate one for breakfast. Not feeling too great today. Didn't really sleep and those meds are making me feel a bit rough...

Back to thinking...